And what to do now?

His still quiet voice is much to be desired in this moment of a new year. With a restless heart and eager ambition I seek His guidance. And the safest place is in worship and trust. He promises to guide...He promises to protect...and now may obedient discipline mold and refine!

Purify Our Hearts

For the present is the point at which time touches eternity.
-C.S. Lewis

I am thankful today for knowing..right now...in this very moment that we are loved. We are safe. And we are forgiven.

We must Celebrate...

TODAY!

That is the echoing truth of the moment. Often/lately my conversations with other artists are filled with questioning the future amidst a chaotic nervousness.

"What are you doing right now?"
"Are you with an agent yet?"
"I just don't know how I'm gonna do this."
"How do I balance my survival job and my art?"
"How...what...when...but i thought...really!?!...I don't know..."

I have been feeling an overwhelming sense...a reminder if you will...for Praise and thankfulness. I am blessed and yet I still have want for another day other than today. And then when I am standing in front of another human being and I see their smile or tears or laughter...I am reminded how wonderfully fulfilling it is to be present...to listen...to give.

And then the truth of the moment comes up...yet again...and now it's coming from behind that "veil" that seems to be a mystery to us all...

"You must get yourself centered. You can't focus on your art when you are distracted. It's important to hold on to your individuality and find representation who will get behind that."

-Top NYC Agent

Ahh...

Rest is meant for you and me...Today...

i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday, this is the birth
day of life and love and wings; and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth.
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now the ears of my ears are awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened

-e.e. cummings

Juan...

Joins us at the end of every day to clean our office. And he is re-teaching me how to speak Spanish.

After the end of a long day, his smile is always uplifting.

Today...he wrote the days of the week and numbers 1-10 on paper, so that I could see the language.

His presence is grandfatherly affection.

(i may or may not have found our top level execs having a brewsky in our stock room...;)

These Days...

Are filled with the unexpected. Many of us walk down the streets of New York, avoiding eye contact and holding our belongings tightly. It's as if there are constant fear bubbles floating all around us. And then...there are those unexpected moments...

If you are not careful you will miss them.

I don't want to miss them. So. I am going to 'jot them down'...here.

Yesterday...

Female violinist street performer played with extreme enthusiasm and an Asian American child began to dance. They communicated through song and movement. The crowd took notice. I smiled:)

Once I stepped off the train I saw two, very tiny, Asian American women walking and talking arm and arm like young school girls. Smiled again:)

Today...

As I walk to the train in the mornings I try to remember to pray for my family, friends, and the world. I realized that every time I walk by Ace Hardware Store I feel safe. Why? There is something about it that makes me think of my grandfather...and I feel safe when I see those men each morning.

Close to the stop I see the 'fruit man' setting up his stand. Today he was singing, "Goodmorning...goodmorning...goodmorning." Those moments of unexpected song fill the air with childlike spirit and remind us to breathe. Thank you fruit man.

And then as I walked into my building the door man asked (very brotherly), "How are you liking your job up there?" I answered, "Oh I like it alot!" He replied, "Good," as he nodded his head in approval. It was as if had I not liked it he would have gone straight up to the 24th floor and done something about it:)

...more to come

All in all that the world would know your name...

Saw a girl carrying bundle of three sunflowers tonight on the train...Got to the babies and their family had a sunflower magnet on the fridge :)

...thankful

Reviews are in!!!!

"Strong supporting turns are also provided by David Chandler as Haber, who makes devastating decisions and Brandy Caldwell as Clara, who remains the most human character in this busy script."

http://www.pittsfieldgazette.com/default.asp?sourceid=&smenu=124&twindow=Default&mad=No&sdetail=1851&wpage=&skeyword=&sidate=&ccat=&ccatm=&restate=&restatus=&reoption=&retype=&repmin=&repmax=&rebed=&rebath=&subname=&pform=&sc=1593&hn=pittsfieldgazette&he=.com

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"Brandy Caldwell and David Chandler make a superb couple of fellow scientists - Clara Immerwahr and Fritz Haber, whose relationship provides a glimpse of the possibilities our character of Einstein is immune to for the most part. "

http://www.berkshirebrightfocus.com/berkshiretheatrefest/theeinsteinproject.html

"And David Chandler and Brandy Caldwell are oddly charming as the husband-and-wife team of Haber and Immerwahr -- who converse with Einstein from the grave."

http://www.timesunion.com/ASPStories/story.asp?StoryID=818516

Here are photos from the show!!!

http://www.berkshiretheatre.org/gallery/TheEinsteinProject/Einstein_Show_2009_JD_026

Rehearsals have begun!

I am thankful for this strengthening time. I stand alongside brilliant artists who are constantly inspiring. The show is going to be beautiful! I wish you all could be here to share it with us! I so greatly appreciate all of your prayers. Please be in prayer for me as i seek to serve those around me...that God would give me special opportunities to truly be a blessing to my friends here. Please pray that I find the necessary motivation for my character so that I can successfully fulfill my role within the story.

Know that I am only a phone call away and I would love to hear from you!

love,
Brandy

Coming Up!

Hi friends! I start rehearsals for The Einstein Project on Monday! Woohoo! I also have a great lead on a new Apartment in Manhattan! This week the BTF apprentices arrive, including my beautiful friend Anna! Please be in prayer for all of us as we seek to serve our community!

love,
Brandy

what a lovely day...

I am so thankful to be working with another associate who's father is the CEO of the largest Community Center on the West Coast dealing with families in need (Vista Del Mar) !

Some of you may not know that I am recently pursuing certification as a Drama Therapist. Every Actor has to have a day job and this will incorporate both of my passions...children and theatre! I was made aware of this fabulous opportunity after watching "Autism the Musical" by The Miracle Project.

I want all of you to see it! It shows the wonderful ways Drama Therapists are being used to impact children's lives!

I am so very excited about the miraculous possibilities ahead!!!

Back in the Berkshires!

Yes graduating from Regent was a momentous occasion filled with abounding gratitude and tears:) And now I am thankful to report that God is continuing to provide in His most perfect way!!!! I am back in Stockbridge MA working as a box office associate at The Berkshire Theatre Festival and I will be playing Clara Haber in the production of The Einstein Project. The show runs June 30th-July 18th. I was thrilled to find out that one of our patrons (Mr. Hyatt) will be throwing our cast a party with the playwright as his special guest!!! The days here are oh so peaceful. If you have never been to the Berkshires you are missing out on one of the most beautiful areas in this country. I am blessed to be living in a gorgeous home (that I will post a pic of very soon:). Our graduating class also had a successful Showcase in NYC before my drive into MA. I drove through NYC for the first time! I was so incredibly proud! Move over taxi drivers! The outcome of the showcase was also a great blessing. Our little family of ten students who spent everyday together for the last three years, appreciated every last moment together! I have been contacted by a Talent Agent who was present, that wishes to represent me when I move to NYC!

Oh how I miss all of you who read these words that I'll be posting! I will be home for a short stay in September and I want to hug all of you!!!! Please email me with your prayer requests and know that I am continually in prayer for you and your family, standing with you believing in God's promises!

I also have a new acting website that will post show dates and pictures as this journey unfolds...brandycaldwell.net

I love you all and please please give me a call so we can catch up! I am off on Sundays:)

love,

brandy